In today’s world, we all live, lives of expectation not only in the goals we set ourselves, but of social standards and ways of thinking…

I guess the main aspect of this is social acceptability, and the attitude and persona you adapt to, just so that you can fit in… Personally I do not believe in changing yourself to suit others, but in today’s age and society there are quite a majority that do…

But the pressures you can put yourselves under in trying to achieve this “acceptability” is quite astonishing at times, and it proves to be the source of depression and in some cases conditions such as bulimia which are know to source closely from the pressures of today’s society.

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Before I start once again I have to apologize for the delay in my next post on here, its been a busy weekend. And what great results for the England’s teams in rugby and football hey…

Anyway, on with the topic… Long distance love and relationships… With today’s technologies it has become a lot easier with most of the world connected to the internet in some form or another, communication has become incredibly easier, with instant messaging services which have been round for a while now like MSN Messenger©, Yahoo Instant Messenger©, AOL Instant Messenger© and ICQ©, that was the first step in connecting the world…

On top of that with the new revolution of VoIP (Voice Over IP) services like Skype© allow you to call fellow skype users across the world for Free with quality clearer than that of the average phone call! And for a cheap “Skype Global Rate©” which covers the major countries around the world you can call landlines and mobiles throughout the world for as little as 1.3p a minute…

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Over the last few weeks I have been hearing many things about audioscrobbler and Last.fm so I thought I’d sign up to it and try it out myself…

Audioscrobbler is a huge online music database which records on an online database what tracks your listen to using your favourite media player and add statistics and so on to a personal profile just for you, which shows your listening habits…

Now having given in to the latest internet “fad”, it made me think about why the music industry does so well… It doesn’t take a genius to realize sometimes it is just the irresistible chorus, and the beat that makes you start to dance or tap your foot. Depending on the kind of listener you are that may be all there is to it…

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Having watched the news a minute ago, there was a new story regarding bullying within schools and it made me think back to when I first started at school in Bristol, and how I was subject to bullying to begin with…

But how does bullying effect people? Well its obvious it effects them there and then, but I am thinking beyond that. I think you can see it kind of like a glass with a crack in it, it will still work and hold liquid, but any further pressure on that crack and the glass will break or fall apart.

In the same way I believe the tears that are shed during the bullying don’t totally disappear, an inner tear remains as a reminder of what went on in the past. Like with any other pain you face in life, experiencing being bullied makes you grow stronger so that you can overcome it, yet deep down that bullying will leave an insecurity in you waiting to be triggered. If someone manages to find that trigger, that “soft spot” you could find that insecurity showing face again and emotions boiling up from the past.

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First off, sorry for the delay in my next post, on Saturday I had to totally rebuild my PC to fix a motherboard defect… So I spent most of the day doing that… Great fun… Not! But am back so w00t.

If you haven’t realized by now by the way, all the pictures I have used so far in my blog are caption images I have created specially for this blog to match the thoughts I depict here, so I hope you enjoy that part of the blog as well…

So today’s blog, what to talk about? Well the last few blogs have been words, I guess, of advice for problems I have faced in the past, that maybe someone on the day has inspired me to write about, or simply because it lurks at the back of my mind…

Today I deal with my own thoughts, my own state of mind… I guess in some ways I am a worrier, not that I show it much, but it seems it’s part of my nature… Possibly because I care too much? But why try and throttle who I am? I guess you could say it protects me from hurt better, but I’ve tried it and I just don’t feel comfortable doing so… So, I continue to care, no matter what caring comes packaged with…

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Of late I’ve felt a bit like I’ve been burning the candle at both ends, there are a lot of “projects” I want to work on but its just a matter of finding the time… There is so much I wish to achieve in life, and yet in perspective not that much time to do it…

In today’s society it seems that if you want to go anywhere there is only one route to take and that’s the long road of progression. Things in life don’t come easy and you have to work for them, sometimes harder than normal… Depending on your personality and mentality, that can be a hell of a lot easier for some rather than others…

Some of the decisions you find yourself making could prove to be very painful decisions to make, but they need to be done to progress down that road ahead of you in life. You have to keep a positive view on things, because if you don’t you could find yourself loosing your determination and your will to carry on…

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If like me, you like to understand all you can about your partner so that you may further understand how to care for them when they are down, or in stress… But when, if ever, should you pause to think, that in your venture to find out more about your partner, you could come across a past that maybe you’d be better off not knowing?

You see, we have all made mistakes in the past, some with more an impact than others, and sometimes these mistakes could haunt us for a long time after they are made…

But should your partner know your deepest darkest secrets of your past? I guess it depends on your partner’s commitment, will they be able to look beyond your past demons? Or will it grind at them over time, and the trust they had in you before you said anything may slowly fade away…

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Jealousy… It’s one of those things that none of us enjoy feeling, but yet is an emotion that we all feel… Some are better hiding it than others… But what is the best way to deal with it?

You see, in some cases a bit of jealousy shown, can make your partner feel more loved… But then again too much and its suffocating, then again none shown at all could be interpreted that you don’t care at all…

So your in a bit of a predicament, no one likes to be suffocated by their partner’s jealousy, so how much do you show? You don’t want them to think you don’t care…

“jealousy is a very ugly emotion, but then again pent it all up inside and you could find yourself loosing it completely…”

The way I see it, is that jealousy is a very ugly emotion, but then again pent it all up inside and you could find yourself loosing it completely… So its good to let it out bit by bit, let your partner know you do actually care at the same time, and you may find you get the best of both worlds…

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It’s funny, recently I’ve noticed how particularly in the western world people have become so accustomed to getting things their way that they are ready to scream bloody murder if it doesn’t happen.

For example being a Manchester United fan… Yeah I know, I know, no one is perfect hehe but joking aside, you would have needed to have lived in a deep dark hole, or to be not that interested in football (or soccer for those out there that call it that) to not know that over the last decade it has been Manchester United that dominated the premiership… But now things have taken turn, and the premiership is becoming a better all round league, and with Chelsea’s new (what seems) unlimited bank balance the powers seem to be changing…

“yet like spoilt kids, the united fans have started booing the side, lack of loyalty comes to mind…”

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